I Can Draw Trees & Coffee Stains & Little Dots of Ink

I'm kind of tired, 'cause they wouldn't let me sleep last night. I was being haunted by evil dream people until dawn, there was yelling & running & a very unpleasant fuss in the air, to the extent where I started throwing things at them. It didn't help.

The day has been great though, despite the harsh circumstances. Don’t ask me why, but I’ve always been on top when things get mentally challenging. No sleep, no food, long travels, music festivals, car break-downs on autobahn, the Christmas Tree catching fire, that kind of thing. I think I have it from my mom. She is amazing when things start sucking real bad - no panic, no mental collapse, just a simple question: What do we do about this?

She turns 49 today, but you honestly can’t really tell. There are days when she’s not a day over thirty, others when she’s so pissed she simply can’t be out of her twenties. I’ve always thought the deal was over thirty & it’s time to get sensible. I’ve realized now just how wrong I must have been, considering there can be no other word that fails worse to describe her.

I have a new project, by the way - to learn to draw. & now don’t think this is some new vain attempt to be what I clearly am not. Believe me, I gave up trying a long time ago. Recent changes of plans & wants & wanted plans - i.e. me learning that what I really want is to study graphic design at a local college - have however forced me to once again pick up the pen & start practicing. So far I can draw A. a magnolia B. a tree & C. an iPod satisfactory enough for people to recognize the items correctly, which is a great start, if you ask me. Seeing that the point is for me to illustrate a poem / text of own choice, now all I have to do is find one that includes all three objects & I’ll be set.

I think tonight I will practice dogs. If everything goes according to plans I’ll then have a repertoire increased in numbers of acts to four. What school would not be impressed. I suppose it’s time to start searching for my future elsewhere, considering the acceptation rate of approximately 5 applicants out of 80. It just seems so perfect. A small school in the countryside, yet one of the best considered pre-university educations in Sweden when it comes to design. I guess I can do nothing more than my best, nor nothing less.

www.ostragreviefolkhogskola.com

Yes. this night will be spent on dogs & the drawing of such.

& now dear ones, it’s time for me to cook a birthday dinner.

’til next time, Take Care

Love

Fre-Dee