Life, Love, & All the Little Details

Hey lovers.

It's Saturday night & I've barricaded myself in my room to try and find some peace of mind. What a wonderful expression that is by the way; 'Peace of Mind'. Not piece of mind, or - as I thought for years - peace of mine, but Peace of Mind. What a perfect state to be in, wether it's a short truce between those fighting thoughts (& thoughts fight dirty, I tell you) or a long-term settlement in that ongoing conflict in the soul vs. body matter. It presumes that the mind is a battlefield, & any saying carrying that amount of wisedom, you cannot but love.

In any case, it's pretty much all I can hope for right now. I had the prettiest dream ever to invade my messy head, this fucked up bloodstream of mine a few nights ago. I dreamt I met love, real love fairy-tale style, just when I thought I'd lost all my faith in this waiting-waiting-then-waiting-some-more-game life & I are playing. It was to true; free of fear, free of sorrow or doubt, just love - simple & pure & worth it all. I met love, & he chose me. He chose me. Now I'm left wishing I'd never woken up. What's better than meeting the man of your dreams...? - Not meeting him in your dreams.

Love actually looked a lot like Jason Mraz

Peace of Mind. Acceptance of the present. To see beauty in dirt. I'm learning slowly.

Arabic: هُدوء عَقْلي، راحَة ضَمير Czech: klid duše Danish: ro i sindet Dutch: gemoedsrust Estonian: meelerahu English: Peace of Mind Finnish: mielenrauha French: tranquillité d'esprit German: die Seelenruhe Greek: ψυχική ηρεμία Hungarian: lelki nyugalom Icelandic: hugarró Indonesian: ketenteraman jiwa Italian: tranquillità d'animo Latvian: sirdsmiers, dvēseles miers Lithuanian: dvasios ramybė Norwegian: sinnsro, sjelefred Polish: spokój ducha Portuguese (Brazil): paz de espírito Portuguese (Portugal): paz de espírito Romanian: linişte sufletească Russian: душевный покой Slovak: pokoj duše Slovenian: dušni mir Spanish: tranquilidad de espíritu, serenidad Swedish: sinnesfrid Turkish: huzur

Just pick one, right? Keep it close to your heart, keep it in mind. I just love how that works; the heart / brain cooporation. How they argue, fight, but in the end so bravely look after each other. Whenever my heart is hurting itself, my head steps in to clean up the mess, & if my head gets too dusty, my heart is there to tell it to get over itself.

We make a great team, the three of us.

My new project is to make a pretty bag for Diane. It's her & me now, & I want her to be comfortable when we set out to discover the world. I don't think I've ever loved any electronic equipment in this passionate way, & this from a woman who's iPod's name is 'Robert Zengovski'.

I clearly did not have to tell you that.

My coffee is cold now, eventhough I have the best coffeecup in the whole world. Trust someone who really knows me & sure as hell loves me to give me one you can even bring in the shower. I did by the way, which helped keep it warm even longer. But eventually the cold of my room got to it. The coffee is cold, that means it's time to sleep.

My own, private Saviour. I call him Jesus.(Mine's prettier, but you get the idea.)

Dose of the day: Not enough to keep me up any longer.

Song of the Day: 'Good Song' - Salem Al Fakir. Get a taste of the sunshine [here].

Quote of the day is despite its beauty, actually the words of Nietzche: 'There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.'

Conclusion of the day: Though I seem to lack both love & reason at the moment, I take comfort in knowing I at least have plenty of the madness thingy... 'Start with what you have & then work from there' is what my Momma used to tell me.

Sleep tight darlings. I know I will.

d.